I don’t think anyone realises
just how much this takes over my mind
how one minute I can be okay
& then I see my reflection
or then I see someone going to the gym
or I’m triggered by friends
not one minute of my day is spent concentrating on the actual day, the actual moment
no. My day consists of thinking of how massive I am
if only they could read my mind
maybe then they would get it
and actually check up on me
but no. im clearly not worth it
Endlessly exploring 