Anxiety · Death · Lifestyle · Loss · Mental illness

my life feels like an ongoing nightmare

the person I have left

the history 

the person who used to be able to tell me about my nan

the person who would cheer me up – not even realising she was

the person who could remember things from her childhood as though they were yesterday

the person who looked after my mum in those rough times

the person who is just so happy 

the person who lives three hours away,

who I can’t even go up to see due to school

who is getting more ill and weaker by the day

who can’t even recognise my mum as her granddaughter

one of the worst things – I can’t remember the last time I saw her, the last thing I said to her
I want her rid of this pain and suffering and hallucinations


I can’t imagine a life without her


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