Triggers

Anything

From someone walking down the road

to my sister in her skinny jeans
From someone I see not eating lunch 

to Kim kardashians 70lb weight loss 
From seeing people at the gym

to thinspo accounts, I need to be that thin
Anything & everything triggers me, no matter how big or small

I’m in such a vulnerable, scary situation, and yet I need to keep going

People just don’t understand

My mum. My friends. My family. 

I don’t even have good enough friends to tell, they don’t care. When I’m in hospital,maybe but because I’m fat they don’t give a shit

Instead of helping their friend suffering from a life threatening illness, they only care about the attention that they get, and jealous of mine – which is non existant 
Isolating alone trapped