Christmas
My absolute favourite time of the year
Except this year has been different
This year I have developed a soul destroying, physically destroying illness which has controlled my mind
My vision of today was that it would be magical, happy, festive and fun
In replacement it felt lonely, boring and I felt huge
Everything I had been looking forward to
The day that had got me through my mocks
The day that was the most magical day on earth to me was just ruined,
Overshadowed by the darkness and my shitty thoughts in my mental head
All I wanted was one day of peace
My favourite day to be in peace
My mind to be in peace
Endlessly exploring 